August 18, 2011

A Heart Such As That

I long for a heart that loves my God with such fullness that even in the darkest places, I will point to Him and say "He is worthy of our praise!" I often look at the lives of others who I see as an example of such love, and say "I want a heart such as that!"

I look at the story of Corrie Ten Boom as she praises God for the fleas, even before she realized the blessing... that the fleas were keeping the guards out of their rooms and allowing them to have Bible study and worship together. "I want a heart such as that!" I whisper to God, then I proceed to become irritated by the messes left behind by playful children, and annoyed when the car won't start, keeping me from my regular Bible study day. Little things.

I look again at Corrie and the incredible forgiveness she extended to those who treated her with such cruelty. "I want a heart such as that!" I whisper again, yet I proceed to harbor bitterness toward my husband for the unkind words that were spoken unintentionally that morning, and I struggle to let go of the hurt I feel from a friends thoughtless actions the day before. Little things.

I look at Helen Keller and the praise she gives to God in the midst of both complete deafness and complete blindness. "I want a heart such as that!" I cry to God. Yet I proceed to fall into moments of self-pity as I struggle with my own partial hearing loss, and I complain about the discomfort of my minor aches and pains. Little things.

God whispers conviction in reply to my plea...."A heart such as that begins with the little things, the day by day things you experience in your life right here and right now. A heart such as that is a heart fully surrendered to Me in all things. How can you expect to have a heart such as that when big things come your way, if you don't first begin with a heart such as that when the little things come your way?"

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxious thoughts; See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." Psalm 139:23,24

1 comment:

  1. i want a heart like that too. he is teaching me to praise Him whatever the circumstances. life is most definitely not easy, BUT He is still God. living in that knowing brings so much peace.
    i need to read corrie's story.